Cry out your failures

Yesterday I woke up at 2.00am in the morning and waited till I could realize why I have actually woken up. I rubbed my eyes, sensed a little confusion playing in my mind and then realized I haven’t cried (literally) for many months now.

I had heard this saying – ‘tears go dry’ and it was only yesterday that I really sensed the suffocating feel of actually not crying. Then I gave it a thought to understand the reason – I have gone through same kind of emotions so many times, same level of trouble so many times, similar complaints about life so many times, that now I don’t cry but accept it and move on. Not that I haven’t tried changing things or struggling that extra hard to come out of certain grip that isn’t allowing me to move forward. But it was only in the initial times. Later on I just gave up… I realized.

Sometimes even thinking about troubles made me feel uneasy and I would divert my attention on to something else. Now this is where I went wrong. I neither cried, nor did I found a solution. Altogether it had lead to building a mansion of all my troubles that now have settled inside my heart with so much comfort that it had made my breathing uncomfortable.

So what I did after I woke up at 2.00am last night?

I cried. Cried like a baby. Cried like a mad girl blurting out her emotions. Cried like a grown up who wanted to face her failures but didn’t had enough time to do so. I cried and then I found great relief. I slept immediately after some 15 minutes of loud and sheepish crying and had the best sleep of the night.

Today morning I woke up and felt so good that I immediately plunged onto my laptop to write this. You may laugh but not being able to write in my personal blog was one of the reason why I cried. There are many but the most important failure to a writer in me was not being able to weave words. So do I have any lesson to share with you?

Yes, of course – Cry often. It’s good. Sharing won’t make you feel better, but crying sometimes does wonders. Because in the process of crying, you slowly kind of gather all the reasons why you should cry and that small session of bringing out tears crumbles the mansion of trouble in your heart – making you feel light and fresh!

Another lesson – Face your issues – Thinking about what you are not being able to do would make you delay it even more. Instead start from One, then go on with Two and then proceed with Number Three job in your to-do list.

Yet another lesson – Cry out your failure. This is like assuring yourself that yes you failed. Don’t be in a dilemma of whether or not you failed. Be sure. Only then you would take a significant step towards turning it into Success of your life.

The above post is the result of me sharing a fantastic experience – It may or may not connect with you. But it surely has a lesson embed in it. Dig it out for yourself.

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The above post is one of the very personal experiences which I don’t share often. This is my first attempt. Originally posted on my personal blog