Finding the X

x + y = 5

2x – 4y = 10

The above are some random equations which at some point in time, I hated to find the solution for. Why should I care about the X and Y in them? What will I get? Little did I know at that time, that in the future I will be finding and X and Y of my life. Few years back I graduated with a bachelor’s degree and started studying for MBA as well. Then I took up a job offer for a grain processing company and completed my MBA in the mean time. Precisely after one year at my job, I got engaged and she is my wife now. 

Life was going so smoothly. Then as couple of years flew by at the job, I got bit by the entrepreneurship keeda. At the same time, questions started to creep in my mind about the purpose of life and what the hell am I doing in this desk job. Before you assume anything, in my four years at the job, I changed four positions (all different). I thought probably it was the job, so I kept changing. But once you’re bit by the keeda, nothing can satisfy you. 

I got so hung up on the idea of venturing on my own, I suffered anxiety attacks on a daily basis. It came to a point where I was taken into emergency care as I felt I was going to die. At that point, it hit me hard. What on earth have I done to myself? This salary addiction has taken a toll on me. 

After a couple of days, I gave my two weeks notice (Yes, I am US based right now). It has been one month since I quit my job and booked my one way flight to India (along with the spouse). I am coming to India in late July. 

Past one month, I have been doing some soul searching. That is, figuring out what I really like, I don’t like etc. Few things I have tried and then some of them I still have to work on. 

This has been a spectacular one month and looking forward to my journey of finding the coordinates of my life. 

Now I have decided not to settle for anything less than the optimal solution of the coordinates of my life. 🙂